Long before I always sleep late because my brain keeps on running with so many ideas but blogging never came to me,I was keeping a diary instead but I consider it bulky.But when I became pregnant, I badly needed an output. I cannot confide with anyone because I know some people would listen but on my back they would say many things about me. My boyfriend at that time was with me, I was happy with that but I always keep everything I felt that time inside. Yes, I was pregnant out of wedlock. The only people who knew of my condition were my relatives whom I'm staying with (my parents were in Cavite),my closest cousin,my boyfriends family and my closest friends our neighbors knew when I already was on my 6th 0r 7th month because luckily my tummy is small and i still was not getting fat. I was needing someone whom I can confide without hurting me because I know I made my parents disappointed and I don't need anyone who would emphasize that to me.
I was lucky with my pregnancy,I actually enjoyed my bump because I never really became fat ( but I am healthy ), I never experienced morning sickness or any of the pregnancy signs and symptoms. Though I gave birth to my son very early. I was due on the 3rd of July but He came out on the 9th of June thru Normal delivery. I never underwent the dreaded pains of labor. I arrived at the LYING-IN CLINIC @ 6:30AM because we suspect that my waterbag broke, I was checked and found out that my baby's head was on the birth canal already so I was rushed to the Labor Room and my baby was officially out @ 6:52AM.
It was the happiest day of my life.
Many would ask why my blog was titled " THOUGHTS OF A SINGLE MOM ".
Yes, I am a single mom to now a toddler ( 1yr & 5mos ). I chose to be one. I never believed getting into marriage because I got pregnant. I am just practical. I want to ensure my son's future. I want to make sure that I make the right decision and not just get into the spur of the moment. Maybe some of you might say, then why did I get myself pregnant? well, I may have made a mistake of falling in love with the wrong person...but now I am a mother and I wont make drastic moves without thinking a hundred times (even a million) for my son.
I am proud of my mistakes because I am who I am now. If this whole thing never happened maybe I am still madly in love,stuck with that love without any directions in life. I am thankful that I got pregnant because it was an eye-opener and it made me a strong person,because I was able to stand my ground,I am strong enough to choose to be single and happy.
There are times that I miss being with someone but I always tell my self that I am a mother now and my son needs me. If time comes that God gives me someone I just pray that it will be someone worthy of me and my son's love. If that time never comes I will still be happy with my son and be so grateful with my biggest blessing.
I am proud to say that I am living a SINGLE LIFE with NO REGRETS...